What Now?

I would say that I've had my fair share of hard times in this short life of mine. 

A lot has happened in the past 20 years. 

Struggles.

Strife. 

Death in every form.

Disease.

Destruction.

Loneliness.

Dissension.

Bitterness.

Regret.

Resentment. 

Addiction.

Accidents.

Failures.

Pain.

You name it and I've probably been there. 

There's about an 85% chance that whatever it is you're going through,

 I've been there in some capacity. 

Don't get me wrong, I've also lead an extremely blessed life.

But unfortunately it's the hard times that always stick out the most. 

I don't know why life is so hard sometimes.

 I just know that it is.

And when it is the last thing you want to hear is how great things are going to be SOMEDAY.

Or how much better you'll be because of all this. 

I know this is true. 

I wholeheartedly believe it.

But when I feel like crap that's not what is going to make me feel any less crappy.

I know that the Lord uses tough situations to mold us and to bring Him ultimate glory.

I have witnessed this first hand. 

But that doesn't change the current situation. 

The promise of the future doesn't always wipe away the pains of the present.

So what NOW?

Where do I go from here?

What do I do NOW?

I know things will be better LATER, but what NOW?

How do I handle things right NOW?

I don't want to hear or think about the future.

I want to know how to make it through TODAY.

And tomorrow I'll want to know the same thing. 

So what now?