What Have I Done?

I leave for Haiti tomorrow afternoon. 

Every time I remember that I leave tomorrow afternoon,

my mind immediately says,

"Oh goodness, what have I done?"

And then comes the panic attack. 

Yay!

Let's be real,

this trip has me scared out of my mind. 

I may appear calm and collected, 

but I'm still breathing into a paper bag when no one is looking.

I'm not entirely sure what I am so nervous about or afraid of,

I think it's just the sheer magnitude of a trip like this. 

I am going to live on a remote island, 

off the coast of another semi-remote island, 

I will sleep in a tent, 

and pee outside.

It's going to be HOT and there will be lots of mosquitos. 

And I won't get to talk to my mommy. 

Packing has also been the culprit of a many moments of hyperventilation.

I mean you try and fit EVERYTHING you will need for 30 days in here!

That's no easy task, my friend!

So, in summary, 

I leave for Haiti tomorrow at 2p.m. 

I will have NO contact while I am there,

for 30 days,

I am completely terrified of what I am about to do, 

prayers are greatly appreciated.