A New Phase Begins.

So Kamp is officially over. 

I have been sitting in AC for over 14 hours now...

....I don't know what to do with myself. 

We finished everything up around 2 p.m. yesterday and hit da road. 

And when I say my car was packed down tight...

...I mean TIGHT. 

We had that sucker loaded to the max. 

Including but not limited to the luggage of myself, Sutton and Layne. 

We even had to ditch a few items such as, my rubbermaid drawers and all of Sutton's bedding.

But we ended up with a random pillow.

Irony. 

Thinking back over my summer is so difficult.

It's hard to compact it all into single thoughts. 

Like it's hard to think that I was in Wales just over a month ago.

I sometimes forget that that even happened.

But now it's also hard to think that I was at Kamp less than 24 hours ago.

So strange.

It's such a surreal feeling being "done" with summer.

(but I'm not really done, thank you Tech for giving me 3 more weeks!)

(Holla!)

I've learned so much this summer. 

It's been absolutely incredible.

I'm not the same person, and that's a good thing. 

This past year I got WAY too comfortable and WAY too selfish.

I was only concerned with myself, my friends, my family, my feelings, my wants, my needs, my money, my clothes, my car, my appearance, my my my. 

I was so dumb. 

Really, really dumb.

But thanks to the Good Lord, that's not who I am anymore. 

I am His. 

I am not my own. 

I never want to live for myself again. 

Because it's useless and empty.

I was miserable the last few months of school because all I focused on was me.

And so I could never look past what was going on in my life to see what the Lord was doing.

He's so much bigger than me. 

He's so much smarter than me.

He can take so much better care of me than I can.

He is just BETTER.

I would be a fool to live for anything other than Him.

Today, right now, this very moment is for Him.

Not next month, 

or next week, 

or in a few years,

or once I get married,

or once I get things figured out,

 but RIGHT NOW.

Every day is His. 

Every thought is His.

Every word is His.

Every dollar is His.

Every relationship is His.

Every class is His. 

Every step is His.

Every breath is His.

I am His. 

He has become my life.

And everyone will know it.