NEWSBREAK

I have some exciting news...

...I am incredibly pleased to announce that you have helped me raise ALL of my money for Haiti!

And the best part is,

it wasn't just barely enough, or even enough, 

it was MORE than enough! 

So I just want to take a minute to praise the Lord for providing so abundantly!

He is SO good!

His provision astounds me. 

I also want to thank all of you! 

Thank you for helping me do this! 

It's so humbling,

 and has been such a blessing to see all of you support me in this.

It means so much to me to know that I have such a large and generous support team behind me through this.

Thank You.

But I do have another request, 

raising the money is only a small part of your role,

I still need your prayers more than anything!

Our team is going to some very remote and underdeveloped places in Haiti.

This is NOT going to be a simple, easy or comfortable trip.

It's going to be hard and very uncomfortable. 

We are going to need your support.

We need your prayers. 

We need your encouragement. 

We need you to be a part of this with us. 

You are a member of our team as much as anyone of us actually going. 

As a team, we appreciate each and everyone of you. 

And we thank you for being a part of this. 

PS-I'm going to try and keep up the blog as much as I can while I'm there...but I have a feeling internet will be scarce. 

That's Not Logical.

Tonight, I went to community group, like I do most every Thursday night.

And as usual it was absolutely WONDERFUL.

I have the best community group.

And yes, I am bragging. 

There are a few things that make our group so great!

Allow me to share them with you:

There aren't many of us. 

There's only 6 of us total.

That allows us to get into some juicy debates.

And we've gotten comfortable enough with each other, 

that we aren't afraid to challenge each other's opinions. 

We aren't doing a "bible study" per-say. 

Yes, we are studying the Bible.

But, we aren't following someone else's curriculum. 

We have decided to let the Holy Spirit lead us as we read through the Gospels. 

And it's REALLY cool.

We like to talk.

Okay, it's a group of 6 girls, so that's not TOO surprising.

But, it's what we're talking about that's so exciting. 

We're asking questions,

giving personal examples,

sharing ideas,

etc. 

It's pretty dang awesome. 

There was one phrase that I found myself repeating a lot tonight, 

"That's not logical."

I must have said it 10 times.

(I'm sure it got old.)

But I just was faced with the reality that sometimes God just ISN'T logical.

And that just baffles me.

I mean, I'm logical so shouldn't God be too?

Well, I'm overly logical at times, 

it has shown itself to be a problem on a few previous occasions. 

While it is something that I enjoy and do find very helpful, 

it might not always be appropriate. 

God is not always logical.

At least to my puny human brain. 

It made me wonder if I hadn't been raised the way I was, 

would I be a Christian?

I find, that I don't think I would be.

Because think about it, 

if someone told you that some "big spirit being" spoke and everything came to exist, 

I don't know if I would believe that. 

Or that some random man was born of a VIRGIN???

And he later went on to DIE ON A CROSS, 

and then was RAISED FROM THE DEAD???

That is the complete opposite of logical.

 I'm always somewhat shocked or surprised when I hear stories of those people who have never heard of the Gospel, or Jesus, or anything of the sort, and come to believe after someone has JUST told them about it.

Perhaps, I am just someone of little faith. 

I don't know. 

I do know that I am so so grateful that I was raised by MY parents,

and not someone else, 

because to be honest, 

if I had learned about all of this later in life, 

I don't know if I would believe it.

But you know, 

maybe God is logical,

because didn't He know that all along?

Eerie isn't it?

KONY 2012

So, I just recently watched a video that someone had posted on Facebook.

I almost didn't take the time to watch it, 

because it's late, 

I'm tired,

and

it's 29:59 minutes long. 

(that's a long video)

Yes, it was quite long. 

But it was worth it. 

Here's what it was about, 

this was a video about Joseph Kony. 

Any idea who that is?

Yeah, I didn't either. 

Turns out he's this super nasty war criminal in Africa.

He is the leader of the LRA, 

the Lord's Resistance Army, 

The LRA is, as I understand it, a bunch of

 murders, 

kidnappers,

rapists, 

etc, 

who use the Lord as a their reasoning to why they are doing what they do. 

Kony, claims that God sent His spirits to communicate this mission to him, 

and that He must, under fulfillment of the Ten Commandments, see it through. 

And what are they doing you may ask?

They are kidnapping young boys to enlist as soldiers, 

kidnapping young girls to use as sex slaves, and rewards, 

murdering innocent people, 

etc

(typically using the kidnapped boys to kill their own families).

And he's been doing this for TWENTY-SIX years. 

You may be wondering (as am I) how on earth this could be going on for so long?

Because no one knew. 

All this was happening in Uganda, the Congo, South Sudan, and Sudan. 

That's all the way in Africa. 

They don't have toilets, 

or floors,

or clean water,

all they have is AIDS, 

Malaria,

and a whole host of other life threatening diseases. 

Life is just hard there, right?

That's just the way it is, right?

There's really nothing I can do about it, right?

WRONG.

Yes, life is difficult in Africa. 

It is a continent, full of many countries that lack many of the luxuries that we have in our country. 

And yes, they are luxuries. 

Very few of the things we "need" are actually needed to sustain our lives. 

Don't get me wrong, 

I love my IPhone, 

Facebook, 

Wendy's, 

Wal-Mart,

and everything else that is available to me in this country.

The United States is an INCREDIBLE country. 

Not only for what we have, 

but also for who we are. 

The citizens of the USA have proven over the years to be people who stand up for what is RIGHT.

Who believe in FREEDOM. 

And who FIGHT to protect it. 

So now, how does all of this come together?

Well, allow me to share. 

This year, 2012, Joseph Kony WILL be arrested for his crimes.

He WILL be brought to JUSTICE.

And he WILL have to answer for his ACTIONS. 

This year, 2012. 

Great, that's awesome, but how does that affect me?

He will only be brought to justice if the people DEMAND it. 

The US government has sent troops to aid in the capture of Kony,

but if the end isn't in sight, 

it's no longer in the country's "best interest" to stay.

So it is our job to MAKE it the country's best interest. 

We have to DEMAND IT. 

It's our turn to make this real.

It's our turn to stop him.

It's our turn to save lives.

We can do it.

We have to do it.

This video explains it far better than I can,

I only learned about all of this just recently, 

and it sort of makes me sick knowing how happily I've lived in ignorance. 

Ignorance is no longer an option.

The Big City.

Well guys, 

tomorrow morning, 

bright and EARLY, 

(5:20am to be exact)

I am off the the big city.

That's right I'm going to LA yall!! 

I'm off to visit the BFF. 

Krista Doyle. 

Isn't she just precious?

I'm not entirely sure what this weekend has in store for me.

Hopefully it includes ice cream and celebrities. 

I know there was talk of Roller Derby, 

gumbo, 

the beach,

 the cast of The Hunger Games...

...so who knows what sort of shenanigans we'll get ourselves into. 

All I hope is that by the time I come home Monday, 

I have played in the Fantasy Factory. 

So Krista Doyle, make it happen!

Don't worry I'll keep you guys posted. 

What's Coming.

Geez, I have been off my blogging game. 

Sorry about that, 

but you know not much has been happening that I've felt was very blog worthy...ya know. 

But I do have a small piece of news I would like to share. 

Through the provision and planning of the Lord I have been given an incredible opportunity. 

This summer I will be going to HAITI! 

For a MONTH.

In case you didn't know, Haiti shares the island of Hispanola with the Dominican Republic down in the Caribbean. 

I know right. 

We will be living in tents, bathing in rivers, sleeping on the ground, etc. 

It's going to be rather intense. 

And that part of the trip SCARES me. 

Sleeping in a TENT?

On THE GROUND?

For THIRTY days?

NO running water?

Possibly NO SHOWERS?

Bathing in a RIVER?

WHAT AM I GETTING MYSELF INTO?

To be honest I don't really know. 

But the beauty of the situation is that the Good Lord sure does. 

He knows exactly what I will be doing. 

He knows where I will be sleeping. 

He knows what I'll be eating and drinking.

He knows who I'll be meeting.

He knows what I'll be feeling. 

Isn't that just the COOLEST thing ever!

The Lord is just so cool.

But I do have just one favor to ask...
...I am going to need your prayers.
I need them now as I prepare myself spiritually.
I'll need your prayers while I'm there as I encounter goodness knows what.
I'll need help with physical trials, spiritual warfare and emotional strain.
I'll need your prayers when I come home to be able unpack and put into practice everything that I learned.

Haiti will need your prayers.
The people there will need your prayers to allow their hearts to be open to the Holy Spirit.
They will need your prayers so that they can respond to the Holy Spirit.

So I'm just asking for some prayers.
That should be pretty simple right?
I mean aren't we supposed to be praying 24/7 anyway...
(not that I do...but you know)

So just keep faces like these in your prayers.
Preesh.

Like Mother Like Daughter.

So, I'm a junior in college.

"Sooooo what are you planning on doing after graduation?"

"What career plans do you have?"

I'm a French/Spanish major. 

"Oooo what do you want to do with that?"

"What CAN you do with that?"

Let me just answer all these questions really quickly.

I DON'T KNOW. 

I have absolutely no idea what I am going to be doing after graduation next May.

I barely even know what I'm going to be doing this weekend, 

much less next year. 

I really don't have any specific career in mind. 

I never have. 

French and Spanish were just the most logical...and easiest...choice for me. 

(thanks Calcasieu Parish and CODOFIL)

The thing is, I have a pretty broad field to choose from career wise. 

There are several jobs I could see myself doing and absolutely loving.

I could see myself coaching tennis for the rest of my life. 

And I would absolutely love that. 

I love tennis. 

I love coaching. 

It's fun watching my students understand and succeed, in the sport that I love so much.

It's very rewarding and fun. 

I could see myself as a teacher. 

Preferably high school or college level.

I would love being an English teacher or even a French teacher.

I love literature. 

I like reading it and learning about it.

I find it interesting.

And I think it would be nice to be able to share that.

I could see myself as a detective. 

I would LOVE to be a detective, or police officer. 

Call me crazy, but it looks FUN. 

I like thinking and trying to figure things out. 

I like solving puzzles and answering questions. 

I like finding solutions.

And I have very developed deductive skills.

But the job I want most is to be Mom. 

(for some of you who know me, I pretty much already am, except I have no kids)

I can't help it. 

I wanna be da mama. 

And it's not like I just want babies to play with, 

or that I have this crazy desire to be pregnant or something.

I just want to love kids that need it. 

I don't even really have to have my "own" kids. 

(I would like to but if not thats okay too)

I just know that there are kids out there that aren't loved. 

And I know that I can love them.

I don't really know how to explain how strongly I feel about this.

And so that leads me to believe that this is nothing short of divine.

I haven't always felt this way.

But I do now. 

And I know that this is what I was made for. 

This is what I will be good at. 

And I was made so for a reason. 

This job gets to take all of the jobs I could see myself doing and enjoying,

and it meshes them all into one. 

As a mother I will get to be 

coach, 

teacher,

detective,

chef, 

baker,

housekeeper,

laundress,

etc, 

etc, 

etc...

This list could go on forever. 

Maybe I've just had such a good example of what a mother looks like that all I can think to do is to emulate that.

I have an incredible mother.

She is very loving, encouraging, smart, creative, disciplined, etc, etc

(this list could go on forever too)

She has taken in so many as her own children. 

And I LOVE the picture of what she does.

She loves those who are not her own, as though they were. 

(she and my dad are REALLY good at this)

So maybe I just want to be like my mom. 

I want to love like they are my own. 

And I want to love on as many as God will give me. 

So I'm not saying I want to be mommy to my 3 perfect angels. 

I want to be mommy to the multitudes. 

The ones that other people don't want.

Those are the babies I WANT.

The rejected, abused, abandoned, orphaned, etc, etc

Those are the ones I want. 

Those are the ones I  need.

Those are the ones I am made for. 

Like they say

Like mother, like daughter. 

This ain't it.

I would like to share just a little piece of my heart with all of you tonight. 

As many of you know,

I have a special place in my heart for Honduras. 

I have had the opportunity and pleasure to travel there many times.

And each time has been even better than the time before. 

It's through Honduras, and the people there, 

that the Lord has shown me a lot about myself. 

He has shown me what I am good at.

He has shown me a lot about Himself.

He has shown me a small glimpse of what His future looks like for me.

He has shown me, what my heart beats for. 

My heart beats for him. 

It beats for my sweet Franklin.

(FYI, that's Franklin)

He's around 11 years old now. 

Wow, he's getting old.

I first met Franklin when he was 7.

He had just arrived at the Good Shepherd's Children's Home, in El Zamorano. 

He was quiet and shy and incredibly skinny.

His poor belly was big and puffy, just full of parasites. 

There was just something about him, 

all I wanted to do was hug him and squeeze his precious face. 

I've had the extreme pleasure of getting to watch sweet Franklin grow.

He's no longer the weak, frail boy he once was.

He is big and strong, and just as lovable as ever.

It's been over a year since I've seen him.

That makes me sad. 

It makes me sad knowing that I can't be there with Franklin everyday.

I'm not there to see him play with his friends and learn new things. 

I wish I had the pleasure of getting to see that.

But what kills me are the years before I knew him. 

Just thinking about all those nights he went to bed hungry.

All those days he spent begging and stealing to survive. 

All those years he spent worrying about things a 7 year old boy shouldn't need to worry about. 

It hurts me to know that I wasn't there. 

It hurts me to know that no one was there. 

This ain't it. 

There has to be more to my life than tests and papers.

There's got to be more than coffee dates and family dinners.

I'm not entirely sure what "more" is but I know that, 

this ain't it. 

All I know is that tonight as I was sitting on the couch watching Nacho Libre, 

all I kept thinking was:

"this is a mighty big couch, I wish I had some little kiddos to snuggle up with and watch TV with me"

"I wish I had a house full of little faces that needed me"

It brings tears to my eyes every time I think about all those little people out there that need me, 

and I'm here drinking an Icee and painting my nails. 

So all I know right now is that,

there's more than this.

And I fully intend on finding out what "more" is.